ANNOYED AND MISUNDERSTOOD

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ANNOYED. Explain this to me why the fuck does my opinion matter so much. I figured out a long time ago if u worry about what everyone else think you are bound to feel like a failure. I know I can be a bitch or just rude sometimes but if you know me u know its all love. If I do sometihng you dont like thats fine I will try to remember that, but I can only be ME. So, if it happens again let that shit go cause I have already told you how it is. Then to make it seem like I always do it or I do it on purpose pisses me off. I am so tired of ppl not understanding me and wantin these changes. Well fuck that I dont want to change if you can't handle the person I am then dont FUCK with me. I Am like so beyond stressed right now. Its amazing how things can be going so right but still have you damn near going crazy. My life is moving in the direction I want but other thing are poppin of as my progress is happenin that is really stressin me. It amazes me how ppl can justify there behavior with what there going through, but cant understand yours can be based on the same thing. I'm not sayin its right but thats how it is. I am a good person I dont try to hurt people and when ppl make it seem like thats what i'm doin it annoys me especially someone I'm really down for whenever they need me. If I can accept you for your flaws accept me for mine.

I'm so tired of BS and how did my life get filled with so much drama. I am forever Yellin "DRAMA-FREE" then outta no where is all around me. I just want one day of not giving a shit about anything but of course that will never happen. I have so many feelings that I keep inside to please or make it ok for others and it always blows up in my face. When I finally say how I feel its like me just playin tit for tat with something they did when its really how I feel and I am at the point if you dont give a FUCK neither do I.

It amazes me how my mind set has changed from a year ago. Shit I wanted back then is stuff I absolute despise now. I dont want it anymore. I cant even figure out why I did it too much fuckin trouble. I just want any easy going life with stress that I create not from others. I wanna be understood and I dont feel like I am. I think its time to get on the FUCK THE WORLD tip and keep doin what I'm doing.

AHHHHHHHHHH! I feel better now. I thought I was gonna have to smoke a Cig for a minute this shit had me vexed. Wow I am cussing quite alot but thats how its coming out of my head. Anyway Thats all for now. Now that I have a laptop I need to start bloggin more. This is really helps lol. ~Smooches~